Opportunity cost of SERIOUS

##Since i am young, i dislike to feel lose. So i always ask myself to be more tough and aggressive. I wanna to control all my things around me. But this attitude let me lose a lot of things include friendship. All of my friend don't like my attitude. Because i am serious in everything. I wanna make it perfect. So i always ask myself to do more than other people. BUT..... how many of my Friend know about tat and understand about it. So they start to leave me alone. They don wan to mix up with me anymore. Because they feel so stress to make friend with me. It is my fault? I still cannot find a correct answer about the question.
##I ask myself to change, i ask myself to change till same attitude with them. But i don feel happy at all. Sometime i will feel lose among them. Wat they care just entertainment? If u don have same hobby and entertainment with them, u are not their buddy. They will start to leave u and boycott u. They also will start to ignore u.
##Wat should i do? Wat should i change? Sometime i will feel so stress about tat. But they really know about my question. Really know what i really wanna in my normal life.
Sometime i ask myself don think so much. I also wanna just leave them alone and don wanna join them. But i cannot do tat. Because i know tat i will be more lonely in future. Human cannot survive without friends support and helps. Specially when u move out from your home.
Friends, i just hope that u all understand more about me only. What i wan just a normal life. Nothing more than that.
##I know that i got a hot temper. I already change a lot and i already swear that i wont lost my temper so easily. But why u all still wanna challenge my temper. Ignore me, don wan chat with me, don wan to mix up with me. I so bad till u all don wan chat with me anymore...... Why? May u give a good reason about what u did?